Not this round...

Well this wasn't our month...so I will go for my CD3 blood work tomorrow morning...hoping this past round of hormonal blood tests will tell me something.

Ovulation test results...

I used this brand of ovulation tests because I didn't want to be staring at little lines and guessing.

This is CD 13 and the result was Low

CD 14 and it's a blinking smiley face which means High

CD 15 and I got a Peak!!!

Now to cross fingers and enter my two week wait.  I do have blood work scheduled for CD 21 so I can have those hormone levels checked out.  Stay tuned...

TTC Journey...again...

Life was busy for me over the past 8 months.  We started building a house in June and for most of the summer we were camping.  Blogging was not my first priority but that doesn't mean that I have given up on trying for another little one.  After my miscarriage in May I had a series of blood work and a mapping ultrasound with a follow up HSG.  My doctor was hopeful that I would be pregnant by December despite a few hormones showing at the low end of normal on the blood tests.  Alas I am still not pregnant but I just met with my doctor again on Tuesday to formulate a new game plan.  We are repeating the blood work to see if my hormones are still on the low end and I am doing ovulation testing.

My fertility app projects that my green window just started so I took my first test this morning.  Today is CD13 and I got a result of "low."  I will keep posting my results as I get them.

If I don't get any positive results from the testing my doctor would like me to consider fully weaning Juniper.  She only nurses 5-10 minutes at bedtime and then first thing in the morning.  It is such a small amount and I hate to end our little moment of calmness but maybe it's time.  I was hoping to have the weaning process be led by Juniper.  I hate forcing her to end something we both find comfort in especially if she ends up being the only child I get to nurse.  Hopefully my tests will show me some good results and it won't be an issue.

For now I will just try to enjoy the trying part of TTC!

Heartbreak...

This little one will not be joining my earthly family...I hope your heavenly siblings are embracing you and holding you the way I will never get a chance to.

My repeat bloodwork showed that despite the progesterone my levels were dropping and at 5 weeks 4 days I lost my precious little one.  I'm heartbroken but trying to hold things together for Juniper's sake.  It's so hard when all day she asks me for a baby and follows anyone she sees that is holding a newborn.  Mamma is trying to give you that baby, Juniper, I promise I'm trying!  For now I will try to heal and keep hope for the future.

5/27/15

I hate the waiting game part!  I went in for bloodwork yesterday and finally heard back around 11:30 this morning that they want me to start taking progesterone and do repeat bloods tomorrow.  I'm having some dark spotting today which has me stressed.  I know dark means old and is not necessarily a bad thing but it definitely doesn't make me feel very safe.  Hoping tomorrow brings better news!

Terrified but hopeful...

Yes it, super faint...but it's there...right?!?!

I'm not disappearing this time.  Good or bad I'm here and talking and terrified and maybe a tiny bit excited.  Internet world be kind to me I need your support!

5 minute mommy makeover...

Sometimes you have a few rough nights dealing with night terrors that result in a very tired mommy the next morning.  That's been my life recently.  And despite the fact that I have nowhere to go today I just felt like I needed a little face pick me up this morning.  I'm a lotion and little bit of mascara girl.  No fancy stuff for me...but I did discover a few products that help me amp things up.

Younique is a company known for its 3d Fiber Lashes.  All I can say is WOW!  I love them!  I added their BB Flawless Complexion Enhancer and now this lotion girl can have a touch of coverage without that yucky foundation mask feeling that I hate!  Add a touch of Lucrative Mineral Lip Gloss in Luxe and voilà mommy looks awake and ready for the day in less than 5 minutes!

Here is my face half made up with just those 3 products.  The eye with the Moodstruck lashes definitely looks more awake and my lips look fuller with just that tiny touch of color and shine.  The BB cream just adds a bit of evenness to my skin and in the dry of winter I find that it also helps to keep my skin soft.  Don't worry I did go back and do the other half of my face after I took that photo...

(Also please ignore my poor drowned rat hair)

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